I love my Papa

 Bimillahir rahmani rahim

On July 4th 2011,My papa Numan Mohommed passed away and words can't express what i felt that day.I have known papa for 20 years and those years have been the best,he taught me everything,from Islam to learning to do Namaz to listening to good music and watching great movies.He was a very religious man also very hardworking,he put 30 years of his life in making our Tea garden great.He was a great father and husband,he always sacrificed his needs for his wife and children.When i was a kid i wanted to be John Wayne,when i got little older i wanted to be a superhero but when i was 16 i just wanted to half the man papa was.He was generous and honest and yes people took advantage of that and whenever i told him to do something bout it all he told me was "Let them take advantage of it and cheat me and i am no one to punish them but Almighty Allah is always there and they will get what they deserve from them."This thing i could never understand and most probably will never understand that how could he be so patient and genuinely good from heart in a world like this.I remember the last few days in hospital with papa we talked a lot that time.He told me take care of mum and sis,look after myself and look after our tea garden which has been in the Mohommed family since 1856.I miss papa,i miss him miserably but all i can do is pray for him now.My family was and still is very strong bout papa passing away cause we know he would want us to be strong.I see papa in my dreams a lot and it feels so real and he always tells me that he is happy and glad bout me,I don't know if  its cause of my subconsciousness or real messages but whatever it is i like seeing papa.Papa had a very peaceful death and i am glad about that,there was no struggle.I guess that's how hayat works when your hayat in over no doctor or person can save you it's just your time.Whatever we have and whatever we are our principles our morality in thanks to papa's guidance if not for him i would have been not been who i am today.He never gave up on me even after getting kicked out from two boarding schools all he told me was"Life is not over you have still got a long way to go,pick yourself up and start all over"and this really  made me feel like i could do anything if i push hard enough.He inspired me,taught me everything i know also showed me how to balance my life.My family will always love him and pray for him so that wherever he is he is in peace.Thank you papa for everything i love you and always will.Ameen

Celebration of Death?

Recently i read an article posted my Brooklynwala,i have no idea who that is but the article made me think.apparently Sikhs in the USA also have been harassed as terrorist for their beards and their turban they wear!well in India its not the same case but the case in India is not that thankfully.what i am not thankful for is the Muslim population of India is targeted no matter how patriotic we try to act,i myself have receieved remarks from my frens maybe in a joking way but still i received comments such as 'how you coping up with your uncle dying'and 'so are you gonna take revenge'.i took them as a joke but deep down i guess it  was kinda weird that how people easily stereotype you even after knowing you for so long.
Yes,i did say woohoo and all when i found out bout Osama's death but was that right on my part.hell yea he was a dick,hell yea i hated that prick and hell yea he intrepreted Islam in his own twisted way to justify his killings but should i stoop to some fanatical dictator mass murderer's level and celebrate his death or should i ask why wasn't he captured,what bout the unanswered questions,didn't the families of victims of 9/11 deserve some answers,hell the whole world deserved those answers,but what did we do?we celebrated Osama's death and we celebrated it with pride!and the muslim people all over the world is still hated for something one person did.deep down muslim people wanna fit in with other people and majority of the muslim people refused to ask the question of why was he killed and not captured,we did so because we didn't wanna be harrased anymore but did the harrasment stop.even as muslims celebrated his death people will riducle us with question such as 'why are you celebrating,go mourn for his death' and maybe yea we should have just done that not as his followers but as human beings,we should have mourned for the unanswered questions!i still hate myself for refusing to question and joining the mass just like every other sheep and if people wanna call me a terrorist well i just don't give a shit cause there is a huge  difference between a muslim and mass murderer.learn the differnce not all bearded people are bad,not all people who wear turbans wanna kill you same as not all muslims are terrorists 

Michael Muhammad Knight

Michael Muhammad Knight

I never heard of Michael Muhammad Knight before june 2010.i got to know bout him by actually watching the trailer of taqwacores.my first reaction was that he is one of those salman rushdie kinda guys no offence to anyone.before i tell you more bout him let me tell yall something,me growing up as a muslim kid is hard see i love music and i wanna make music inshalla one day i wanna also write a comic book but according to Islam dictated by the Imams,Sheiks etc told all these things are haram and i felt like a bad muslim that time even though i prayed,read the quran,didn't drink,didn't eat pork and the whole deal.the i read Mike Knight's book the Taqwacores and there is a line in there it goes something like this-'My Allah is too big and too open for my Islam to be small and closed.'this line gave me goosebumps.

 Mike Knight wrote a lot of books one of them which is made into a movie.he is an author,punk,wrestler and a muslim in his own terms.lot of people have criticised his writings but they don't  realize his writings are mostly on Islam from a point of view of the rejects,freeks and the misunderstood,these are the people which mainstream Islam portrays as the "bad" muslims.he is a hero for the muslim youth and he is not trying to form a cult or whatever.what i think is he is just a person who is trying to express Islam in his own way.now does that make him a kafir?or a person who has balls to stand up for what he believes in!

Last post for a while

Well my exams or eggjams are due on 21st of this month so i really gotta work hard anyway this my last post  for a while and i am not going to write something h eavy instead i have a pic hopefully not fake of anne hathaway as catwoman,i know i know hell yeaaa.also tom hardy is to play bane according to imdb but people are saying he might play deadshot or hugo strange (non comic fans google it dumbasses) anyway i am dying to watch this movie lets hope Nolan does his magic again and Mr.Nolan do not worry fanboys are still gonna critisize yer work!

Taqwacore

Michael Muhammad Knight in red

Early 2010 was the first time i heard bout taqwacore,my sisi once again introduced me to it.i first went on youtube and checkd out the trailer since she told me it is also a movie,first of all i have never seen or heard anything like that,i was stunned.first of all taqwacore is a not only a genre of music but also a movement i mean i guess it gave me a lot of courage as a muslim kid,taqwacore basically is a portmanteau of hardcore and the arabic word "taqwa" which mean god fearing which is basically love and fear of god.its kind of a muslim punk scene and i aint talking bout gay ass blink 182 punk though i did listen to it when i was younger,i am talking bout "the ramones","dead kennedys" and "sex pistols" kinda punk.taqwacore does not only play punk it alao plays hip hop,i dont know how to define it exactly but i do know is that whoever is taqwacore(yes i said "who")can be themselves,they can throw their masks up in the air and me 101% themselves.taqwacore is also a book by michael muhammad knight(who kicks ass).i really have no clue what i am talking bout but i do know that now i can be myself no matter what and taqwacore is not only for muslims, its for evryone!in taqwacore people have their own definition of  Islam there are people  who drink alcohol and smoke weed but also pray five times a day!they defy and question some rules of  Islam but they still love their faith!i am not here trying to justify my drinking or smoking,i am here to say "yes i pray five times a day,yes i am religious and yes i drink sometimes and smoke a lotta weed and yes i love a non muslim girl" orthodox muslims will tell me i am a sinner but i know people who know bout taqwacore will prolly tell me to take a shot and not care bout the orthodox!I respect and love my religion i dont mean to disrespect anyone!For me Islam is the way of life and this is how my life is!Sallam walaikum.

All haters welcome!

"This is dedicated to all the douchebags and haters"   this past few days i have been getting a lot of hate comments and you know what?i have never felt so alive.i mean one way or the other we all are haters,i mean we do hate something but it depends on what length we willing to go or matter of fact how low we willing to stoop!like for example i hate corrupt governments i mean evryone does except for the people who are in the government so in some way thas justifiable thas a good kinda hate,these haters dont talk loud,they  state their opinions and stand behind it,i respect these haters and hell even i am one of those haters!the other haters are of the worst kind they are little rats running around looking for things to hate i feel sad for these haters coz they really dont have a life,they never try to appreciate anything and they think by talking smack it makes them strong,powerful and "cool" well, newflash haters that just makes you look sad and pathetic and desperate for attention.i love haters,i mean come on haters take out time to comment on my blog which is not even famous,i love those haters.haters are funny they talk big and strong in chatrooms and write hate comments on blog but they will never have the guts to tell it on yer face,when i got my first hate i ran to my mum and dad(yes i love and respect them and its nuthin uncool or cool about it,its just that i am human) and told em"mum,dad i got my first hate comment" my dad got up and said"wow are you finally doing something right?"if these haters really mattered they would me changing the world!if i would have got my first hate comment few days back i would mad and hurl insults at him and waste time actually i did hurl a few insults but then again thas just me then today a wise bearded fren of mine messsaged me saying just ignore them!i was like damn! you are right btw me and my bearded fren are both wise coz we have facial hair.so when you encounter hater next time ignore it i mean if he is actually reading yer stuff and then commenting you already won,,you made the hater read a thing which he hates so as nicki minaj says "haters,you can kill yourself" and haters next time you leave a comment also put in you adress so that i can kill!nahh m kidding  yer life is worth shit."Haters are like slinkies they are really good for nothing,but they still bring a smile to your face when you push them down a flight of stairs."

Slinky

My four favourite fictional characters who kick ass!

I love movies so obviously my favourite fictional characters are from four great movies if you havent watched any of them,you suck!one of my all time favourite characters is Tony Montana from Scarface,i mean come on that guy throughly kicks ass.his famous dialouge 'Say hello to my lil freind' makes me wanna be a cuban with a m-16,this guy has the perfect rags to (drug) riches story a no one from Cuba later owns half of miami,how fucking awsome is that yea he sweats and swears a lot but come on that guy got 'cajones' (pronounced cahonees) from his suit to the way he says man (mai-n) plus he also has a heart though stained with coke and the hunger for money, i love the dialouge "What you think I am, huh? What you think, I a fuckin' worm, like you? I told you, man! I told you, don't fuck with me! I told you, no fuckin' kids! No, but you wouldn't listen! Well, you stupid fuck! Look at you now."basically Tony Montana kicks ass and if you have not watched Scarface,i feel sorry for you!and Al Pacino was perfect for this no one could have done it better and i f you think someone could have,well fuck you and "say hello to my lil freind"

My next fav character is Don Vito Corleone from Godfather I played by the brilliant Marlon Brando,when i watched this movie for the first time i got goosebumps throughout the whole movie fo reals mebbe coz i am too hairy but thats for another time.Vito Corleone is quiet and is not hyper the total opposite of Tony Montana plus Vito Corleone has balanced characteristics and people fear him though he is soft spoken and does not carry a m-16 around trying to make people say hello to it.the way he speaks in the movie is just to fucking amazing i have been trying to copy that stuff for years and the hand movements along with great dialouges hell yeaa baby!this guys kicks ass in a sophisticated way!and intimitading dialouges such as"We have known each other many years, but this is the first time you've come to me for counsel or for help. I can't remember the last time you invited me to your house for a cup of coffee, even though my wife is godmother to your only child. But let's be frank here. You never wanted my friendship. And you feared to be in my debt."were the most kick assy thing bout it!if i ever had to choose the best italian gangster of all time i would say Vito Corleone even though its just fictional or is it?(not sure)


My next fav character is Travis Brickle played by Robert Deniro in Taxi driver.i would have never known bout this movie if it wasnt for my wonderful sister  so Farhana thanks sisi.Travis Brickle is a good guy who wants to clean up the streets of NYC but its kinda more complicated than that.from his swagger to the jacket he sports to the mohawk(yes deniro with a mohawk)its a very dark movie and slow for me but i loved it.its like he wants to clean up the streets of NYC but he is a no one he is just a taxi driver!but he tries to make things right this movie taught me that one man can make a difference and you can start by getting a mohawk,the most rebelious haircut ever!he kicked ass all right but it was real it shows that the good does not always prevail.everytime i look at mirror i remember that sence from taxi driver where he is holding a giant ass magnum pistol and says 'are you talkin to me?are you talkin to me?i dont see anyone else around.you must be talking to me'whatever it is you gotta watch this movie.


The other character who is my fav is relatively much younger and he does not kick ass in the traditional way.its Dale Denton from Pineapple Express played by Seth Rogen who is just too fucking funny.i loved his acting its like so natural and its like sumthing anyone of us would do and oh yea!througout the whole movie there is lot of weed smoking and it was so new to me its like ass kicking with weed thas a fucking weird combo and the humour of this movie is like completely off the hook.this movie is unlike any other movie i have ever seen so if yall wanna smoke up and enjoy, get this movie!
















P.S-Get these movies if you don't you are a racist loving asshole!

Fuck S.O.C.I.E.T.Y.

Look how proud they look btw it has nuthing to with the post i just like this pic

first of all yes!fuck society second of all i put the dots in between the word to make  it look cool so no full form.you know what i am tired of fucking society chaining me,its frustrating i mean come on you think a lil bit different i mean it may not be even different but if society thinks its not a lil bit usual they will be like 'that kid needs to see a doc'i wanna tell them go fuck yerselves.do we have to act like we like stuff coz society wants us to as in lets say being a doctor or politician or the usual govt slave or i dont know what not,i want to be a comic book writer if i tell people this they will give that cocky smirk like "oh!(my son is better)"i then feel like transforming into a giant ass samurai robot and stomping them.i mean if you like something and the society think its weird i say fuck em if you are an indian supporting pakistan or a pakistani supporting india be that just dont go with mass coz that will fuck you up,i hate society coz after i failed my class 11 people just looked at me like some i dont know 'son never be like him' kinda guy and yes i smoke that does not mean i kill people at night,all smokers are not evil,we do it mebbe coz we cant leave it(same cant be said for druggies tho) and yea i am straight forward with people  if that makes them hate me,well theni really dont give a fuck coz  yer liking aint gon change my life now, is it?! i got a really great girlfreind who loves me for who i am and great bunch of frens for who love/hate me for who i am but at least i am really me and also if yer jokes suck i dont have to give that fake red carpet laugh!so i say be what you are dont give a shit about the society coz if you do, you a bitch!



NOTE:Nobody in my society or any other society was killed or fucked by me while writing this post.

Enakshi aka E

Enakshi

E and me in some srtupid jam where i swear i was not high

hmmmmm!i really dont have any clue how to start this off!well for starters Enakshi(pic above)is my girlfreind,my gal etc etc.she is the one person who believes that i cn some day be a samurai assasin who also uses guns like really cool guns though i am fat,sloppy and lazy.basically she believes a lot in me,whenever i am down and out she tells me "i never knew my boyfreind is such a wuss to give up now!" and that somehow does not cheer me up!it actually makes me wanna hide under my bed and make out with her(kidding) no no jokes apart she was my bestfriend,i still remember the day when she walked into that 2nd language class(assamese class i know its not the ideal set up but we were in boarding school so screw you)and i saw her for the first time not as my best freind and she looked amazing she looked like some godess(can be greek or roman your pick) and after that it was all weird feelins like the cliched "how can i like my best freind" to "i am never getting her" well few months passed and things went well and we got together so thats that.But honestly she is so good at heart that i have to tell her to be mean and selfish and i love the fact that she is my girlfreind i mean you have no idea how proud i am to be her evovled ape boyfreind and i want  yall to know that if yall love yer bestfreinds just go for it dont think and stop,just jump in with yer feet first and yall wont regret but make sure its the opposite sex coz i dont know much bout same sex relationship not that i have anything against it.So Enakshi my angel disgused as an assasin for some secret squad and also the real Bride for Kill Bill thanks for being there for me whenever i bore you with the videogames/comics talks and listening to them even when yer eyes are red and you just wanna tape my mouth :) and thanks for always being there for me and believing in me and lovin me and also trusting in my plan of robbing a mexican banks so we can be rich in pesos! thanks a lot babe 

Lone Stoner

this is a old poem/whatever it is and its supposed to be fun or as m dear sisi told me mockery of death!so here it is and if you think its gay go kill yourself!

It's the same old routine
Every single day,month and year
Awake in the morning eyes still red
I don't wanna get otta my bed
Summer Sun'd heat filling up the room
My back's wet
Oh!I finally have to get up
Now my eyes i rub
Glance at the clock
Late again,screw that!
Slipped into my tattered Air Force
Which still smells of damn socks
Jack Daniel's bottle on the floor
Checking if i got more
Oh!yeah I forgot,have got an appointment with God
Well he can wait
I brush my teeth
Thinking bout the last girl i slept with
Oh!yeah it was Nisha she was cute
Her face to me is nothing but mute
I am done with brushing
I rinse my mouth with colgate plax
But still gettin the taste of Malboro lights
Checkin myself in the mirror
I am all ribs and bones
I still remember my Gym membership card
Had a well toned body and arms like a minataur
In the back Hip-Hop beats being played
I look for what to wear
All i got is white tees and shorts
And nuthin to care
Picked a white tee which is nearly brown
Smellin of Thanksgiving dinner at Rosa's place
I put my shorts on,find a lil weed
Don't wanna waste it
Smoked it all up
I am now high,eyes all red like rubies in a Sinbad movie
Stepped out,looked at the gleaming Sun
With my ruby red eyes
Wished that the moon was the only one
I stepped into the car
Which smells of Marijuana and all the other drugs i did
I am tired of it but wanna get more
It aint peaceful like the sea shore
But then again never felt peace
It's an illusion i have never seen
I satrt up the car
It in gear one,speed it up
Now it's gear four
I am near the docks now
Phone vibrates,It's God's call
I am already there
Gon reach my destination
It's the open sea
I speed my car thru the barrier
Into the open sea
And no my life does not flash in front of my eye
Only thing in my mind is
Why didn't i sleep with Sandra
And all the booze,weed and parties
I am gon miss
Uh-Oh!too late i hit the water
It breaks the glass,rushes into my organs
This is how i end.Goodnite!

I wanna dedicate this to my girlfriend Enakshi who tolerates me and loves me for all my flaws and flabs.Thanks babe and love you forever

Finally!

 yow!ummm well here i am with my first post of my first blog and its not gay!dont worry i am not gonna bore yall with fashion talks and party pics and try writing smart gossip girly kinda stuff!now that would be gay i mean as gay as a Brit wearing a rainbow colored t shirt and listening to I will survive!also i am not to keen on spellings or grammar so wooohoooo!I hope yall like my stuff and i will try to be as pleasing as i can.Good luck with that though.